It appears because I tried to post the photo while only having a brief window of data connection on the subway, I may have somehow lost the image forever. I am suddenly racked with regret and frustration, reminding me that there is concrete and ice all around us. Massive forces we can’t always, or ever, control. This is part of the battle people, or I, face. Reconciling good and bad things, intended or random interactions, burying the bad and trying so hard to preserve the good, which is inevitably, not very plausible. But we can make it.